Assurance, Devotion, Honesty

Assurance. What can I be assured of? Man, I just don’t know, yet!
Devotion. What am I truly devoted to? There is one creature that we can surely learn devotion from!
Honesty. Ooo. I realize...and I had to actually realize or get in touch with this...that I don’t quite know if I am actually being honest with myself. I mean if I really ask myself and really explore that, I run into some uncomfortable places. A friend and I were commenting on how we feel like two different people sometimes; the one on the inside and the one projected on the outside. The great thing is that many of us are waking up to this, as uncomfortable as it may be.
If I’m not being honest with myself, I’m not being honest with others. Ugh. And THEN I realized that I’d been covered with some kind of veil that prevented me from seeing that! Ugh again! A veil that was created by me, for me, to protect me from something I perceived as danger. Behind the veil I told myself that I didn’t have to be honest, that it was ok to not be honest – as long as no one else knew – and I hid that pretty well too! It’s all because of fear. We are taught that this is a fearful world and we need to look out for ourselves and trust no one – not even ourselves?!? But I must trust myself in order to stay or be sane. The more I “wake up”, the more the veil(s) lift, the more I realize how un-sane I was and probably am. I don’t want to say “insane”, just un-sane! Because on some level we are all innocent because we are so programmed from birth, from culture, from society, from specific people, from advertising, etc. We are beginning to wake up from our programming. The more I become conscious, the more I can be assured of my inner capacity for self-love, the more I feel into the awakening process, the more devotion I feel toward going deeper, because it gives me a feeling of assurance that if I keep looking, feeling, and seeing, I might just find myself somewhere in here.
One thing I know for sure, my dog (in today’s photo) is the most adorable canine in the world!! She teaches us unconditional love and devotion.
​With Love and Devotion to Awakening,
Char