What I learned from my present bout of sciatica...

Don't know why, don't know how it happened, really...so sudden, so...embarrassing!!  Why? I feel as if I "should know better." Uh-oh, sounds like a parent shaming me. Not into it. Let's take a different road. 

When it "appeared" "suddenly" I thought, "What's this? Wow. Well, should work itself through once I get moving today." Four months, two chiropractors, and a massage therapist later it was barely any better!

I am again and again reminded of the value and benefit of the work I do. Gentle, eeeasy, supported and very slow movements that allow me to feel - I mean feeeel - what's actually happening as I move. I'm not bypassing a thing. It's like it all needs to be felt to be released. It insists! It's just not going to release until it's felt, heard, given loving attention...it's the voice within saying "Look! Look! Look! This is how we heal. Enough bypassing, enough ignoring and thinking I will "go away. You may think I've gone away, but I'm still here and I'm thinking of a way to get you to hear and see and feel me SO I'LL BE BACK"!!! 

And so, I listen. And I feel, even thought it's uncomfortable to do it. Then I breathe, integrate it, and let it go. I get support from friends in the healing world. They help so very much. 

I learned what I already know; that the Wallace Method is one effective way to address and heal my structural compensations and to go deeper into body awareness as well as emotional awareness.

I learned that I had the tools the whole time to heal myself. I just needed to be reminded. I feel a little like Dorothy.

I learned that when we're in pain our nervous systems can flip into fear so that even when we know what to do for another, we may not have enough access to know what to do for ourselves.

I learned that sometimes, there's nothing more important than taking the time for self-healing, self-soothing, and loving attention to ourselves.

Then, we can really be there for others.
Thanks for reading.

Love Always,
Char